problems after problems !
am i able to stop all these ?

big uncle had been confirmed nose cancer,
he's one healthy uncle who'll take the stairs instead of
the lift to his unit at 11th storey daily !
he dun smoke and drink only like once in a blue moon !
he's a super nice guy who'll fetch me to work
every morning when i used to work at AR
despite being late for his work.

small auntie had got heart disease which causes
her breathing difficulties !
she had often give me $$ since young and dote on me and zhumeimei alot
her heart was so weak now tat she had to
use medication to control her flow of breathing.
but still gotta continue working those wee hrs shifts daily.

small uncle was retrenched 2yrs back
he had been working in office environment for
the past 30yrs and now, he gotta use his bare hands
to wash cars for others. the weight that he losses hurts me.
the unclearable debt tat he had owed the bank,
letter after letter everyday in the mailbox pressing for payments
is pushing him too hard and makes him nuts !

as for daddy, i dunno wat he's doing also,
working and clearing his debts at the same time.
cant even spare some extra cash for our family expenses
always out for drinking.

all the stress and burdens had been down to me
i gotta scrimp and save for everything which i need to spend on
for my sis's education and for 3 meals to the family.
popo's health is deteriorating upon all the happenings to the family.
it hurt me so much seeing her getting upset and crying over her children's misfortune.
she always want me to find a good husband to married off
always saying that her time is almost up,
wanna carry another great grandchild before leaving.
hais ! how not to be affected after hearing all these !
seeing her wrinkled face, sitting at the sofa watching tv,
seeing her getting older and more senile,
made me realise how time had past !

i'm not like before !
not as carefree as before !
i've got a huge responsiblity to carry !
a big obstacle in front of me to overcome !
i gotta be a big adult !
an adult to shelter and protect my family .

too much stress and burden on me !
but i still gotta survive !
they are the ones who stood beside me since i was born
the 1st one who rush to the hospital when i got into a fight last time
the 1st sentence is " are you alright " instead of " why are u so naughty "
much much feelings when reflecting the past.
our togetherness is so strong last time
the times at chalet, in ktv, etc . . .
at least 20 members each outing
the smile on popo's face was so vulnerable & priceless !

i want back my happy family
and i gotta find back my happy family !