celebrated cousin jolene's bdae. she's one of my closest cousin. always the 1st one to be there for me no matter wat happened. every member of my family was present. both cousin darren n cousin weiyang brought their gf along too. finally its their turn. still remembered the last time when i was the only one bringing my bf to our family reunion dinner. the thought of getting myself a bf came across my mind again.

thinkin back, it was ard 5mths ago since i had a bf. i had always concentrated on destiny which keeps me occupied for these past 5mths. sometimes, i really envy girl girl to haf such a wonderful bf to accompany her no matter where she wanna go or wat she wanna do. sy too, with bro gary, they were so in love right now tat no matter how tired bro lim is, he'll still come n fetch sy home. jimmy n esther, the always bickering couple. they'll still be together despite after so much quarrels and fights. my dear younger sis got herself a bf too. haha. looking at how they trust and cherish each other make me feel so comfortable and glad but, at the same time, lonely for myself. sometimes, i jus had this feeling to lie on someone's shoulder and take a break. someone whom i really can rely on. someone who will gif me happiness and will be wif me till the rest of my life. i'm tired of all those puppy love relationships which wont last. i'm getting older day by day, all i wan is to haf a man to be at home to massage for me after a tiring day frm work and be there to hug me to sleep. i really need this kinda baby-like feeling after being alone for quite some while. i'm tired. i'm really tired. when will my true love appear? or is it tat i'm too over conscious to overlook tat someone who had already appeared and is beside me all the time? i had always trusted fate for my love and relationship all the while. maybe it's jus not the right time to start a relationship now. who knows? anyway, being single isnt tat bad either =x

met sy and girl at bugis. i was late due to the heavy traffic. reached ard 7.30 n we went to walk ard. got myself a mphosis sandal despite it was the last pair. bo bian, all my sandals were either too slippery or too old. time to get myself something new to slip on. girlgirl went to jiatok wif her bros n co whereas me n sy went to work.

when we're abt to end the day's job, jimmy n co came to destiny to drink. many things happened and my lil girl got so agitated over the 2 bitches. haha. had some misunderstandings wif jimmy too. i was abt to sit down n haf a short rest, and sing the song with ken while waiting for sy to come back after smoking outside, jimmy shouted across saying tat didnt i need to work?! i got so fed up tat i shouted back to him saying tat i'm not the onli waitress at work tonight!!! i understand tat sy got a lil bit high n i was like doing everything myself, didnt he haf any eyes to see? i doubt so as he's walking in n out of destiny ever since he stepped into destiny after the jiatok. i'm also human! i'm also a waitress!!! cant i even haf some time to rest. its been a busy night and there's only 2 waitress there!!! how to manage? n sy's pattern, everyone know lor. i'm not blaming her, jus feel so bek chek tat jimmy shouted at me. this is the 1st time i shout back and oso the 1st time i got so angry in destiny. esther was understanding enuff to sms me and explain things over. overall, everyone was jus so tired and stress abt destiny. i seriously think tat its time to haf a good rest and break. it'll do good to everyone.

3 more days to my lil precious's bdae! still didnt know wat to get for her. monkey! drop me some hint lehs.

Labels: bekchek night

Kranji por tor. drank quite alot. went back to lor ah soo to continue drinkin.

drinking night. bored~

headed to plaza frm cutecute's hse. had my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner and went dota-ing again. esther ring me up and ask who's workin tonight. she said she had mixed up the schedule. so i called suying but she couldnt make it today so i had to replace her for the night. initially esther didnt wan me to go as there's no crowd n they might close early. but jimmy called the 2nd time n need me to rush down b4 10pm. jimmy paid for my cab fare down as i'm reali penniless already. upon reaching, they're planning for mahjong session but was cancelled when chris went home early.

homed after work.

supposed to work tonight, n we need to pray for the 7th month too. reached and we started to burn the joss stick and candles. den jimmy told me tat they'll be closing early. i tot tat their early is ard 11pm or 12am. however, they close immediately after we pray. meaning i didnt get to work tonight. wth?! if they'd told me earlier then i wouldnt haf rushed down!

went to hougang plaza to look for cutecute. played a few matches and finally, we get to play our 1 vs 1. i lost to him as he's using sandking and i'm using venomencer. but nvm, i'll train harder to improve my dota skill n one day, i'll beat u!!! tewyongwei, jus u wait n see!!! hmp.

yq and co came to plaza as well and they wanted to go to geylang. psyco-ed me and went down with them reluctantly. did nothin except for walking frm street to street, looking at those whores and hearing tat yq saying riding bicycle. at first i didnt know wat's riding bicycle and kena fooled by them but after tat when i notice, they all laughed at me! idiotic!

met tat ah siao whom i msg in frenster. den i realised tat he's tat dui hong of cutecute's at the red bar (rush). no wonder so familiar and tat makes my lil cutie jealous too. haha. stayed overnight at his hse as i dowan to waste my cab fare on midnight charge.

didnt earn money, instead spent money. i need more money man!!!

halfway tru it den i realised tat it was the 1st day of the lunar 7th month which is oso known as the Ghost Festival. i was adviced to best stay at home this month. need to remind my girlgirl not to go swimming and not to scold vulgarities so often.

movie wif weijin, desmond and co. reached then i know tat i'm the only girl over there wif 9 guys. lols. maybe i can become one of the bros too. or they long ago tot tat i'm one of them already? =)

watched the bourne ultimatum. dunno wat the hell the show is casting abt. dun understand abit at all. haha. told them to watch 881 le. dun care. next movie i wan to watch 881. =)

taiji night. lols. cant believe tat i'm still so childish. but sometimes due to some circumstances, i really cannot help it. drinking at lor ah soo, with lao eh as well as him. hais. seriously, i did my part by being single frm the day he's in till now he's out. as we didnt haf a proper breakup ever since he's inside. until now, when we met, we behave like strangers. i aint sad as i knew tat i dun haf feelings for him anymore. as long as i did my part as a gf. now tat he's out, he has got his own life, his own freedom. i will still wish him all the best for his new relationship.

CJS, take care!!!

worked then dragonfly wif desmond and ah bee. met yinghao n co n off to dota session. we played frm 4am to 10am. lols.

short entry. nothing to post.

not in a good mood to blog. will be back soon for more happenings.

had my passport and ic done. these 2 costed me $150. a quarter of my pay is gone. met suying who's 2hrs late at bugis. shop ard and we bought the vest which we'll be wearing together tonight. managed to take a pic of it.

actually while working there, many had asked y if i could stayed there for so long. the reasons is very simple. when i started working, there's this bunch of regulars who will always be there on every friday. they are a group of 4 or more ppl who are namely, fabian, winson (ah beng), jacky cheung and 4 eye frog. during tat time, fabian will be the funny guy and also one shoulder to lean on guy. should we be bullied by others or kena drunk by other customers, we'll straight away walk to dis last table and borrow a shoulder from fabian to lean on. such caring and humourous guy finally caught the attention of our pretty anges, who's also the senior waitress at destiny back then. they got together and slowly, anges quitted her job at destiny. desni was the 2nd to quit and followed by melody. at the point of time, there's only left wif me as the most senior then, stephanie who's still quite new. slowly, many waitresses come n go. until there's only me, steph and victoria. feeling in us grew and our frenship developed further. due to some family problem, steph and vic left destiny for day job and tat's the time when my lil monkey joined me. although the time for us to get together is short, however, we share many same common interest and i jus had dis feeling tat i wanna protect dis lil girl frm any danger and harm. not letting her to get hurt frm frenship and of cus relationships as well. n i'm very sure tat she loves me to the core. often i tried to agitate her by saying tat i found a new alabul. she'll down there yelled like a baby and i jus simply love tat face of hers. so cute and innocent. haha.

one thing i'm very glad to see is tat customers came in one by one n frm there, they made frens and became regulars of destiny. i mean which pub will haf this kinda relationships whereby there's frenship growing and waitresses as well as the boss will drink together and get drunk together? whenever there's an occasion, the whole pub will celebrate together as one and not forgetting the christmas party when all of us were so engross in spraying the foams. those memories will be so vivid in my mind and those times were so great. not forgetting the times where by jimmy n esther quarrels, we'll be the victim and peace maker for them. haha. patching them together and listening ear for them too. mahjong sessions and supper after work had also strengthen the bond between us. times at thai disco, dragonfly and other clubs really dance our hearts out and enjoyed ourselves to the fullest. i jus had this 2nd home feeling in me tat makes me doesnt bear to leave tat place. times when regulars were feeling down, when chris came in wif his 3/4 pants and seaweeds, when those funny singers sing, when ppl "merlion". really many wonderful memories.

right now, i jus wanna thanks my frens who had supported me at destiny. thanks to regulars who's there to play games wif me, keeping me occupied. thanks boss chris, esther and jimmy for ur supper and dinner treats. n thanks girlgirl, for being my listening ear whenever i worked till very bek chek. afterall, i jus miss destiny! i wonder how m i supposed to get used to not going destiny after every midnight. i'll be tossing and turning on my bed, thinkin of the wonderful memories tat we had.