i couldnt take it anymore
went to the doctor and gotten mc for today !
there goes 1 of my smiley ~ =(
i've tolerated all the way le ! why cant i just lun for 3days more !
why am i sick at this timing ?
gotten 10 Ps
gonna be a dieting week again !

slp the whole day
didnt want to go anywhere
the cough syrup had made me drowsy
slp and slp and slp
while i blog, my eyes just cant stay focus
gonna KO soon i guess

i need to find another part time job.
im earning lesser and i need more $$
this is my lowest point of live
luck had not been good
health, worsen !
gotta offer some prayers during my offdays . . .

here i am, coughing away since last sat.
getting worse today.
lost of voice made my job difficult for me,
couldnt speak properly and often had to repeat.
i didnt know why im down with sore throat !
siansssss ~

4days more to the end of oct.
this month, im getting all my 3 smileys for my performance report card !
no mc, no late, no urgent leave, no errors !
a straight $150 extra ! woohoo ~

was deciding wat to get for god daughter's 1st bday on nov.
time passes so fast !
i could still vividly rmb how we celebrated her 1st mth
when she's still sooo small and fragile
right now, i think she's even stronger than her petite mummy ! wahahaha
cant wait to carry her !

irrisistable !

i'm used to be alone.
with or without you, it doesnt make a diff !

alright man ! its wed night !
am going to club today ! party hard !!!
by right i should be off today and tmr due to some events,
but its not neccessary already and
had changed my offs to friday and sun instead !
its a party week and i'm gonna club tonight, fri and sat !
long island tea, apple shooter, flaming lambo & heineken !
woohoo ~ drink drank drunk, fling flirt fuck ! LOL !!!

no reasons to say my entry is emo ! rainbow liao hor !

*hope u'll enjoy yr day ! happy bday to you ~

problems after problems !
am i able to stop all these ?

big uncle had been confirmed nose cancer,
he's one healthy uncle who'll take the stairs instead of
the lift to his unit at 11th storey daily !
he dun smoke and drink only like once in a blue moon !
he's a super nice guy who'll fetch me to work
every morning when i used to work at AR
despite being late for his work.

small auntie had got heart disease which causes
her breathing difficulties !
she had often give me $$ since young and dote on me and zhumeimei alot
her heart was so weak now tat she had to
use medication to control her flow of breathing.
but still gotta continue working those wee hrs shifts daily.

small uncle was retrenched 2yrs back
he had been working in office environment for
the past 30yrs and now, he gotta use his bare hands
to wash cars for others. the weight that he losses hurts me.
the unclearable debt tat he had owed the bank,
letter after letter everyday in the mailbox pressing for payments
is pushing him too hard and makes him nuts !

as for daddy, i dunno wat he's doing also,
working and clearing his debts at the same time.
cant even spare some extra cash for our family expenses
always out for drinking.

all the stress and burdens had been down to me
i gotta scrimp and save for everything which i need to spend on
for my sis's education and for 3 meals to the family.
popo's health is deteriorating upon all the happenings to the family.
it hurt me so much seeing her getting upset and crying over her children's misfortune.
she always want me to find a good husband to married off
always saying that her time is almost up,
wanna carry another great grandchild before leaving.
hais ! how not to be affected after hearing all these !
seeing her wrinkled face, sitting at the sofa watching tv,
seeing her getting older and more senile,
made me realise how time had past !

i'm not like before !
not as carefree as before !
i've got a huge responsiblity to carry !
a big obstacle in front of me to overcome !
i gotta be a big adult !
an adult to shelter and protect my family .

too much stress and burden on me !
but i still gotta survive !
they are the ones who stood beside me since i was born
the 1st one who rush to the hospital when i got into a fight last time
the 1st sentence is " are you alright " instead of " why are u so naughty "
much much feelings when reflecting the past.
our togetherness is so strong last time
the times at chalet, in ktv, etc . . .
at least 20 members each outing
the smile on popo's face was so vulnerable & priceless !

i want back my happy family
and i gotta find back my happy family !

felt so randomly random !!!
i wanted to blog so much but i've got nothing to blog abt.
caught the "Haeundae: The Deadly Tsunami" ytd
by looking at its title, its just like those non eye catching movie
whereby ppl would not pay any attention to it
however, its strongly recommanded by me !!!
IT'S a SUPER DUPER touching movie !
i tried very hard to control my tears, but i failed to do so.
damn damn touching story





will be on noon shift today, morning on wed and thurs,
noon on fri then to baby Genial's bday !
i hope u'll be there if u know who u are. its been long since i last saw ya.
mentioned to u but u said u gotta work, depend on situation then.
off on sat and noon shift on sun !
tats my hectic week schedule.


its coming too fast,
too fast which i couldnt give an ans
thanks for being understanding
the previous scar is too deep for me to
make room for others
i'm sorry

know wat nana did when its saturday night and sunday is her offday ?

club ?
prawn ?
drink ?
movie ?
slacking outside ?

LOL !!! none of the above !!!
she's at home blogging!
i guess i'm too tired to go out.
cashless is another factor contributing to the not going out reason
or maybe, i'm too sick of travelling around,
imagine i gotta travel from one end to the other everyday
passing by town and central area.
SO TIRING !!!

lotsa mixed feelings in me.
i just wanna start afresh.
i wan a brand new me.
i'm trying very hard,
and i guess i'm almost there
=)

i am sick and tired.
fever but cant take MC.
tired but still gotta wake up early and work
i felt like collapsing !

HELP ~

Last Dday @ AOS Building, 2D Ayer Rahjah Crescent

Level 3 ! Technical Service Department !


the emergency lift we'll rush to every evening and night for shuttle bus !


the handicapped toilet which i used to change at 9pm.


my fav toilet seat everytime despite the handicapped one