celebrated cousin jolene's bdae. she's one of my closest cousin. always the 1st one to be there for me no matter wat happened. every member of my family was present. both cousin darren n cousin weiyang brought their gf along too. finally its their turn. still remembered the last time when i was the only one bringing my bf to our family reunion dinner. the thought of getting myself a bf came across my mind again.

thinkin back, it was ard 5mths ago since i had a bf. i had always concentrated on destiny which keeps me occupied for these past 5mths. sometimes, i really envy girl girl to haf such a wonderful bf to accompany her no matter where she wanna go or wat she wanna do. sy too, with bro gary, they were so in love right now tat no matter how tired bro lim is, he'll still come n fetch sy home. jimmy n esther, the always bickering couple. they'll still be together despite after so much quarrels and fights. my dear younger sis got herself a bf too. haha. looking at how they trust and cherish each other make me feel so comfortable and glad but, at the same time, lonely for myself. sometimes, i jus had this feeling to lie on someone's shoulder and take a break. someone whom i really can rely on. someone who will gif me happiness and will be wif me till the rest of my life. i'm tired of all those puppy love relationships which wont last. i'm getting older day by day, all i wan is to haf a man to be at home to massage for me after a tiring day frm work and be there to hug me to sleep. i really need this kinda baby-like feeling after being alone for quite some while. i'm tired. i'm really tired. when will my true love appear? or is it tat i'm too over conscious to overlook tat someone who had already appeared and is beside me all the time? i had always trusted fate for my love and relationship all the while. maybe it's jus not the right time to start a relationship now. who knows? anyway, being single isnt tat bad either =x