went to work as suying was on mc. reached n esther told me tat suying will be coming ard 10. so i was like den wat m i supposed to do then? she say girlgirl will be there too. its been some time when there's 3 waitress on weekend as they wanna save cost ma. girlgirl reached then suying. i miss my lil monkey so much. ard 3 days didnt managed to see her le. miss her alot. good thing tat her fever had subsided. however, its heart-breaking to see her look so sick.
at ard midnight, girlgirl told me tat she's having a headache so i advised her to go 1st. i dowan to see her sick and i know tat it very xin ku to work while u're sick. n dis stupid girl tot tat i'm angry wif her. girlgirl, i'm not angry ok? it hurts to see u like tat. u look so pale man!!! n so, DJ sent her back. but not long after tat, suying went home too. i was shocked as jimmy wanted her to go home. she looked drunk, as usual, n i'm working alone. can u imagine? working alone on sat night? i mean weekday ok la, i chin chai wif u but now weekend lehs, u still wan me to work alone? in the 1st place, i shouldnt be there!!! i've been workin for the past 4 days le. its very tiring enough and now u still wan me to one man show. i hate this kinda feeling when i haf to pass mic, clear, wash the glasses, sweep the floor, as well as use the toilet. kaos!!!
aiai didnt came tonight. instead, d came. hais. where were u when i needed u? had some misunderstanding with girlgirl, sorry. maybe i'm jus too bek chek already somemore had quite a couple of drinks le. anyway, jus wanna tell u tat we're sisters forever. nv apart ok? i love u girl.
i'm now at simpang bedok, playing dota wif panda and company. another group of experts again! haha. now den i know tat there's so many indulge wif dota. its quite an addictive game i must say. but its quite bored to play wif experts too. =(
ex bee called when i'm on my way to bedok. he said he had reached boat quay n wanna pass me something. it was meant to be a surprise however, its jus fated tat i'm unable to receive this present. he bought me a bunch of 11 roses. frens says it stands for yi sheng yi shi. althought i didnt manage to receive this present with the both of my hands, ex bee took a mms of it n sent it over to me, with the message "its all right, i should haf tell u before you got off frm work. i jus wanna give u a surprise and apologise for making u angry for the passed 3 years." indeed, my eyes filled with tears. i dunno y. thinkin back, time flies. its been 5 years since we know each other and beginning, when we got together, things went perfectly fine until 3 years later, i started to change to worst and the way he controlled me, makes me initiated for a breakup. maybe its all fated de bahs. n maybe its better for things to be in this way.
the roses ex bee bought.
someone sent my an email containing this meaningful sentences:
人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.
首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。
你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？
沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你 。
當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？
愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。
真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，也就是沒有絲毫要求。
畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。
兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!
明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住：”不可能實現的諾言最動人”
在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。
你呢？找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你？
i love the sentence " 海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛! 明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒； 就算會，也活不到那時候。" its very true!!! n there's one more sentence frm a sms i received " 不要轻易说爱，许下的诺就是欠下的债 "
the most hurting and deceiving affair is relationship. i may be a good listener as well as a good sister but when it comes to relationships, i'm sucha failure. as time passes, the wound will heals. so i jus hope tat my next relationship will be better and will last till we marry. =)
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